The moon is bigger today, heading your way. It’s a full moon.
Now, as we learned in physics, all bodies have a mass, and all masses have a gravitational force associated with that mass. F=ma
The moon is the largest mass we have closest to Earth. It has incredible gravitational pull which is so powerful that it moves our oceans. We are made up mostly of water.
Thank you all for your thoughts. I feel it in the Universe. The biggest power is E himself...and based on yesterday, I think he felt all of your prayers and thoughts.
Yesterday, I almost didn’t have it in me to see him. Stas said 3 words: "go. love him.", so I went and had the best day ever with him. He knew! He was so lovey, constantly looking at all my pictures of our families, gobbling up my kisses, showing me how good he is by playing with all his toys.
What was a first yesterday was when I took him off the potty to change him. He didn’t want to be changed, but just wanted to hug me and be in my arms as we looked out the window. Finally, I needed to get him dressed and we went to the visitation room since the gym was locked.
I don’t know how it is with girls, but little boys sure know how to connect with their moms.
E knows.
He’s all boy…so sensitive…so intuitive…so damn cool…and oh so wonderful.
A new family came to the visitation room where we were yesterday with their liaison (Susan’s agency) and I invited them to play with us. E was shy at first, then he’d walk to me (knowing he had an audience), so proud of himself. Then he’d recognize a photo album and start flipping through theirs. They had stacking cups too, so he’d start to play with theirs. Their little boy just moved downstairs to the big-kid room where E is, where Leeza was and where Kairat (Kelly/Doug) ended up.
Today is an important day.
Well, for one, we are having a BIG ceremony for the 3 ‘walkers’ at the babyhouse. I’ll bring a torte, of course, and a cute outfit for E. Anya will also be celebrated as well as another kid.
Z is meeting with the birthfather this morning in Rudney….he’ll be going to the judge this afternoon here in Kostanai.
If he doesn’t sign the relinquishment, the judge may cancel my court on the 19th. If he does sign the relinquishment, she still can cancel court if she feels he will be an issue. If he signs and she keeps the court date, and assuming she grants the adoption to me, there is a 15 day mandatory waiting period. During this time, anyone can contest or appeal the decision…including the birthfather.
This man invited Z for tea yesterday. She said although he didn’t promise anything, he was nice and genuinely concerned about E. She, of course, made me feel better, and I slept last night. She said that he wanted me to know that he is not a crazy bad man and that he doesn’t want money. Then she said he even paid.
This trip has been and is one with which I will carry for the rest of my life. It has opened my eyes to some things I’ve chosen not to see before. Not only am I so proud to be an American (this part has not changed – it’s just been highlighted yet again), but something else happened & is happening to me here. I can’t quite put my finger on it. It’s like I have found a key & picked it up…a key I’ve never seen before…
…I don’t know how to describe it. You can talk about this ‘key’, you can analyze and study it…but for it to be real, in your hand, you can never find it that way…that's about all I could be sure of regarding this...
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ok, seriosly, can you stop making me cry? as i read this post, i have tears streaming down my face.
Of course E knows-and the relationship with a son and his mom is a very very very special one. He knows how loved he is and he is one neat kid with a fantastic family to live his life with and I am so happy for him!
I'm so glad his birth father did the right thing-clearly, to me, he must be struggling and in the end-his love for E having a better life won. and the judge will grant your adoption-and E will come home with you and you will keep in touch with us as our children grow up and we can compare stories.
I'm a stalker so I won't let you forget us. :)
The adoption process defintely changes all of us-in ways that are difficult to explain to anyone else.
I know exactly what you are saying about finding the key-and I feel the same way-only that i feel i still have a key there, that needs us to come get him. :)
I'm so happy for you guys and I can tell you that our family is FOREVER changed by our experience-not only meeting our princess, but all the other kids, and watching families become united with each other accross thousands of miles. It's truly an amazing, miraculous event, and depsite how hard it can be to get there, and stay there, it's one that i would certainly not change one thing about.
Ok, i am an emotional mess right now. :)
Much love and congrats again-looking forward to reading about court and cheering you on your last few weeks in Kazakhstan!
the New year will truly be a new year for your family!!! I can't wait to see E thrive at home-JUST WAIT! Leeza changes more everyday-it's pretty cool how amazing "the fit" is with these kiddo's and us lucky families!
ok, i'm shutting up now. really.
:)
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